-  If you don't ask yourself, every day, 'oh shit, what have I done now'... you're just not living.  

-  When I struggle, it is usually based on the belief that feeling good depends on attaining some certain elevated state of physical or mental health in the future. But this leaves a vast chasm between now and then. Thinking about the effort it will take to bridge this chasm leads to bad or helpless feelings and procrastination. Depressed thinking is a vicious cycle. And then it dawned on me that I had the  order of things reversed. If I undertook said activities, on a daily basis, that made me feel good when doing or done (like smiling or exercise) then I would attain an elevated state of physical and mental health almost instantly. The path to being happy and feeling better down the road was being happy and feeling better now. Since there was no waiting nor doubt about the outcome - feeling better now - can't I string them all together and ensure that I'll feel better both now and then? The doubt is erased. It helped me work past the tendency to put off living well and fully today due to the fatigue of over-thinking, e.g., that it would take a million pushups over a year to get fit. Ugh. But it actually only takes ten or twenty at a clip to feel better. And feeling better was no longer a long-term goal, but an instant and daily experience. Who needs the future? I hope this helps you too, if you are feeling discouraged. 

 - "Anything worth doing is worth over-doing" - Mick Jagger.  I absolutely agree, agree, agree, agree, agree, agree.  You could say I've lived by this creedo. However, as I disempower my ego these days through development of awareness - consciousness - I realize that the hangover of unbridled indulgence and satisfaction is ultimately limiting. Perhaps the joy of anticipating the ride between doing and over-doing extends the experience even longer! However, back-stage hemo-dialysis machines and the skin tone of Keith Richards have me thinking; perhaps moderation is indeed the trick that extends the experience over a lifetime rather than a Lifetime Movie. Another brownie? I'll pass.

- Do you ever find yourself in a pattern where you just aren't getting things done although there are dozens of things on your plate to do? You are going from one place to another, one meeting to another, one activity to another, and then when you sit for a moment you don't really know which things on your long list to do first, and more to the point, don't feel like doing any of it. I believe, of late, that this is a sign that none of it is really relevant to your primary purpose for being here, and that changes are coming that likely make most of it irrelevant in the longer run. So I'm sitting here as I write thinking that I need to find some quiet, alone time to sit, rest and 'open up' to the larger body of information that is swirling all around me; my antannae are just not picking up the right channel. I'm wondering if I become a better antenna by sweeping the frontal lobes of the clutter and sitting quietly and asking for the guidance to come to me - boosted by the fact that everything else that is going on is telling me, indirectly, that I am missing something that is trying to reach me (the dilly-dallying) - whether I can then thoroughly understand what I am supposed to do next and proceed with confidence and intention (and perhaps jettison the rest). I'm going to make that happen tonight or tomorrow and see what happens. There is a lot going on in my life right now, but I am not putting up much resistance and trying to let the raft 'go with the flow of the river'. I'll let you know what happens.